Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Wednesday..September 28th..A day to remember for me..Not that a year ago i just passed my military license to drive,but rather an exit for 'someone' dear to me..She was there when i first kissed the road..From then on i had a rough idea how tar smelled like..She was there when i passed my 2b license..She was also there to remind me not to feel big on the road and i learnt it the hard way..She was there when i was rushing for time..She was there when i was lonely and had nowhere to go to..It didnt matter i haven't had any destinations in sight..She will just take me there..She was there to remind me it took more than just money to make anyone happy..It needed care and concern..She was there with me when we made people stared in awe..She was there with me when we reprezented..She waited for me patiently outside while i clubbed inside..I was there when she fell sick..I was there when she was treated badly by her x..I was there to make things better for her..I was the one who gave her a makeover and made her mine..And now we no longer belong together..2 years of relationship ended today..Tears nearly formed as the ending moments came to a close just now..As I left her all alone beside that place,i cant help but reminisce about our past..It was very beautiful indeed..I said some final prayers to her..And as i left Wirni Rindiani,i met Citra Balqis..The new 'person' in my life now..As i sit on Balqis,glanced at Wirni for the very last time,and off i went..
A new dimension for me now..No turning back no matter how much i wanted to..I didn't expected emotions would be running high..Wirni was after all a passing phaze i knew i had to pass one day..Buti didn't know the phaze that i had to pass was a difficult one..Wirni will find somebody new..And i know that person will take care of her..Maybe that person will treat her even nicer..I don't know..She is on her own now,for a while..And I am too..Yeah i still have Balqis to get to know to..But it's going to take quite some time for me and Balqis to have that same chemistry I and Wirni once shared..Time is a good medium to heal all wounds..And it will..I hope..Balqis sure needs a new make over and some washing up..Well,
It Can't Rain All The Time..
Here I Go
So Dishonestly Leave A Note
For You My Only One
And I Know
You Can See Right Through Me
So Let Me Go
And You Will Find Someone..
Sweet Memories..Wirni Rindiani...
..2003-2005..
Write with no regret
5:27:00 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Final day of the week..Had a boring day yesterday,which was a Saturday..That doesn't happen often to me..No plans on a Saturday..Damn...Just went over to a relative's place for some religious function and that was about it..Ouh..Well something did happen before that..I finally secured the exit of Wirni in my life..By next week there will no longer be a Wirni in my life..A sudden pack of diatribes was suddenly taken into place the more i thought about it..What if somebody told you that by next week you can already step into another dimension and thus have to leave your current one behind?Cant help this mixture of feelings i'm having from pouring out..It's somehow sad,partly eager and partly reserved..I'm still unsure whether the crepuscular thoughts within can be overturned once all these are settled..
Most proabably going outfied for a couple of days or so..2 drivers will not go as they will be assigned to do admin details for the unit..Lucky..But no names have been singled out..Well i don't mind going outfield..It's like a norm now for me..Let's just say i'm used to it already..Took it like an adventure or some sort..No toilets to wash up,to answer nature be it big or small,and the best,no need to bathe..Ouh yeah..Just a few more months to endure..And bye bye zero cleanliness..
My beloved is coming home today..Not sure whether meeting her can be an option though..Time constrains do have an effect on both of us..Missed her..Although it was only for the weekend..She said she wants the best material for our traditional suits this coming Raya..I don't know if she has found what she's looking for..Whatever it is i will still wear it of course..Our first official Traditional suits together..She still doesn't know i will have to say goodbye to Wirni soon..She will know of course..But not without some acts i would like to put up..Heehee..
Time is a valuable thing
Watch you clock by as the pendulum swings
Watch you countdown till the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal....
Write with no regret
12:57:00 PM
